Extract from Nick Carraway's not so private diary anymore........

July 15, 1924
I still feel a bit confused as to why Gatsby disappeared just like that. Im sure that it wasn't that he felt shy in front of Tom Buchanan. Was he? Gatsby is a very confident man. He should possess the ability to talk to anyone, even strangers, I think. Anyway, I don't think that he has met Tom before. Yes, I agree that Tom might seem intimidating to certain people, but i think that Gatsby off all people would not be scared of him. There must be another reason. Maybe he felt that Tom was sexually attracted to him? Sometimes Tom has that affect on some people. Also Gastby is gorgeous, everybody loves him, and he is rich. He is the dream man. Yes. That must be it. He must have felt freaked out by Tom. I have to tell Gatsby not to be afraid of Tom. As far as i know, Tom is not a homosexual. He has a wife and a mistress for God's sake. If he actually turned out to be a homosexual that would be shell shocking, and the whole world might just as well come to an end. Tom is so straight he even makes me look gay.
Oh, poor Gatsby. I wonder how he is feeling right now. Im sure that he has enever experienced something like this before. Oh poor, poor Gatsby. And he's such a nice person! He has been really friendly to me ever since I moved to the West Egg. Although Im not so sure about that acquiantance of his. What was his name again?.... the man.....it was...... the man with the humuongous nose...... oh yes, Mr Wolfshiem. What a strange name though. Unfortunately, I dont think any other name would suit him either. I mean, look at the size of that nose! Its large enough to be classified as a planet itself! Oh what in the worl are the Jews getting at? This is sad. Maybe Tom was right. If we white people are not careful, bbig nosed Jews might actually take over the world. Now that's a horrible thought. Maybe I have to go read that book that Tom was talking about that other day. What was the name again? Oh, I can just ask him the next time i go over to Daisy's house, or bump into him. Thinking of big nosed Jews now are sending shivers up my spine. Urgh. How can Gatsby be so friendly with these sort of people? They are going to tarnish his reputation sooner or later. Oh poor poor Gatsby. And he already has so many things to deal with. He should take a vacation lest his brain explodes and we'll be cleaning up what's left of him using a broom and a dustpan.
Im absolutely certain that Gatsbby would not be able to take it. He s a fragile emotional person. He might just break under the pressure of that big nosed Jew!. I have to save him...... unles.....Gatsby actually did and enjoyed doing those kind of things. Oh no, Gatsby, a bootlegger? Oh, what is that huge hairy nosed Jew doing to my poor poor Gatsby? I never expected Gatsby to deal in these kinds of businesses. I thought those people were just gossipers with nothing better else to do. I though those were empty rumours. Don't tell me I have been associating myself with a criminal? Oh, I might get influenced by the likes of Mr Wolfshiem through Gatsby? That huge hairy nosed Jew is going down! I might actually be becoming a bootlegger myself! Going against the law?! No, this wont do. Not at all. Doesn't Gatsby know the effect the emotional trauma of getting sent to jail will affect him? Although if I can get rich like Gatsby did, that would be fine. Very fine indeed.I could get any girl I want. And all the girls would want me too. Everyone would know my name. Maybe even Tom would be jealous of me. What a wonderful world that will be.